2 weeks and more art slowly coming

Events at Urbanity , originally uploaded by IshtarsKiss.

I know my artwork sometimes comes out slowly through the pipe. But it gets there. In these past few weeks its been a little difficult to get some things done with how my RL has been lately. I was to have my performance review today but it got delayed for a day. All day i felt nausia due to my nervousness of it all.

Over the past year or my year of hell my work was majorly affected by it. Part of it was being stuburn as hell and not wanting to see my life was at a downward spiral I didn't know how to pull my self out from. Other parts were butting heads with my boss at work and not wanting to consider she may be right about my personal life. I see now that i was only contributing to my spiral. Of course also when some things are said badly by your boss to you and you get depressed under the drop of a hat that can get you as well.

Yes i know i type run on sentences sometimes. I do have a release which is second life. Where i primarily get my new art ideas and also help run a club called Urbanity . It is the one thing that has kept me sane.

I would talk more into my personal revelation on why i got so depressed and what got me out of it. Well two things were part of my depression. My mom passing away and my sl husband who i fell in love with in rl passing away. Two people that i cared for greatly and having them in the prime of their life taken like that, it can really screw your mind up.

Once i finally was able to get out of this depression i came to the revelation why i always got so depressed in my life. One is the fact i finally stopped surpressing and denying to my self that i am Bi sexual. Sure i typed it in my profile and all. But theres the fact of accepting your Bi Sexual as well. There is another revelation but I am only leaving that for my perosnal family and friends who know what i realized after all of these years.

Lets say that now i know that my denying who i was all these years affected my mental and physical health. I am determined to make a change. The bastard cant stop me now. Not again.